Say something

I’m giving up on us.

anyone know who said this?

Your soulmate is not someone that comes into your life peacefully.  It is who comes to make you question things, who changes your reality, somebody that marks a before and after in your life.  It is not the human being everyone has idealized, but an ordinary person, who manages to revolutionize your world in a second. 

I don’t even believe in soulmates. But thank you for marking the before and after of my life.  I don’t want an after, after you.

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not a hoax.

This letter from a UVA student regarding the validity of the Rolling Stone expose is amazing.  It’s short.  Read it. (If you haven’t read the original piece about Jackie, a UVA student who was gang raped at a fraternity party two years ago, you can read it here). The original piece has received some questions about its validity, and RS issued an apology and said they had compromised journalistic integrity by not researching every little detail – and that they’d “misplaced” their trust when they sided with the victim. Okay, so now, as I said, read the letter.

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truth.

I will continue to ride the waves of madness
adapting and adjusting to the sea of life
I would never cut it short
Because I am the sailor
and this is my damn voyage.

From Breakdown.

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whom two.

Maybe you sleep so peaceful
Because you haven’t got a worry in your head.
Or maybe you keep your eyes closed
So you never have to get out of this bed.

And maybe I’m being selfish
I should get my things, and walk out of that door.
But maybe we both deserve this, and besides,
How could I keep from wanting more?

There’s nothing in this world today but
Who we are, and who we want to be.

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When.

When do I get to stop counting the days?

If I had nicotine on my lips, would you crave the taste of my kisses, dear?

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tapes.

How can I constantly have the tape, “I want to kill myself. I want to kill myself. I want to kill myself.” running through my brain, and yet I have no intention, no plan, no method in mind for the actual act.  Is it just easier than saying, “I don’t want to be alive”?

I don’t want to be here.

I just…don’t.

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forgive.

“The Unity pastor suggested that we take a big yellow legal pad, and fill the front and back of a page, every day, for a week, writing “I deeply and completely forgive -________.” I don’t have a yellow legal pad but I do have a lined journal that will work just as well. I am going to take this challenge, because you know what? I want love in my life. I want healing. I want to stop drinking the poison.”

 

Original post from bipolaronfire.

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a sheep without wheels.

“Since our cave-dwelling days, the question of why we make art and why we enjoy it has haunted us as a perennial specter of the human experience. For Leo Tolstoy, it was about the transference of “emotional infectiousness”; for Jeanette Winterson, about “active surrender”; for Oscar Wilde, about cultivating a “temperament of receptivity.”

That question is what beloved Chilean poet and Nobel laureate Pablo Neruda answers with unparalleled elegance in a short essay from the early 1950s titled “Childhood and Poetry,” found in the altogether enchanting collection Neruda and Vallejo (public library).

Neruda relays an anecdote from his childhood that profoundly influenced not only his poetry but also his understanding of art and of life itself:

One time, investigating in the backyard of our house in Temuco the tiny objects and minuscule beings of my world, I came upon a hole in one of the boards of the fence. I looked through the hole and saw a landscape like that behind our house, uncared for, and wild. I moved back a few steps, because I sensed vaguely that something was about to happen. All of a sudden a hand appeared — a tiny hand of a boy about my own age. By the time I came close again, the hand was gone, and in its place there was a marvelous white sheep.

The sheep’s wool was faded. Its wheels had escaped. All of this only made it more authentic. I had never seen such a wonderful sheep. I looked back through the hole, but the boy had disappeared. I went into the house and brought out a treasure of my own: a pinecone, opened, full of odor and resin, which I adored. I set it down in the same spot and went off with the sheep.

He never saw the hand nor the boy it belonged to again. The lamb toy perished in a fire years later. But that boyhood encounter, with the simplicity of its symbolism, impressed upon him a lifelong learning — the second he grasped that faded-wool lamb he grasped a deep truth about the longing for mutuality that impels us to make art:

To feel the intimacy of brothers is a marvelous thing in life. To feel the love of people whom we love is a fire that feeds our life. But to feel the affection that comes from those whom we do not know, from those unknown to us, who are watching over our sleep and solitude, over our dangers and our weaknesses — that is something still greater and more beautiful because it widens out the boundaries of our being, and unites all living things.

That exchange brought home to me for the first time a precious idea: that all of humanity is somehow together…

It won’t surprise you then that I attempted to give something resiny, earthlike, and fragrant in exchange for human brotherhood. Just as I once left the pinecone by the fence, I have since left my words on the door of so many people who were unknown to me, people in prison, or hunted, or alone.”

 

Wow. I love Neruda’s work and I am so excited to read his own thoughts about what he has done as a writer and a human and an artist. The full article I just quoted – written by Maria Popova –  is here. Happy Reading!

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