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oh wait

Little do you know
How I’m breaking while you fall asleep
Little do you know
I’m still haunted by the memories
Little do you know
I’m trying to pick myself up piece by piece

Little do you know
I need a little more time

Underneath it all I’m held captive by the hole inside
I’ve been holding back for the fear that you might change your mind
I’m ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight

Little do you know
I need a little more time

I’ll wait, I’ll wait
I love you like you’ve never felt the pain,
I’ll wait
I promise you don’t have to be afraid,
I’ll wait
The love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me

Little do you know
I know you’re hurting while I’m sound asleep
Little do you know
All my mistakes are slowly drowning me
Little do you know
I’m trying to make it better piece by piece

Little do you know
I, I love you ’til the sun dies

Oh wait, just wait
I love you like I’ve never felt the pain,
Just wait
I love you like I’ve never been afraid,
Just wait
Our love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me

I’ll wait , I’ll wait
I love you like you’ve never felt the pain,
I’ll wait
I promise you don’t have to be afraid,
I’ll wait
The love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me
Lay your head on me
So lay your head on me

‘Cause little do you know
I, I love you ’til the sun dies

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It just never stops. Hurting.
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When the music dies and other such signs of depression

Repost from Dr. Psych Mom.

Lesser Known Signs of Depression: Can You Feel The Music? 

by Samantha Rodman (4.7.2016)

Many times, I work with clients who tell me that they aren’t depressed, and therefore won’t try medication or in any other way augment our work together, or even come into my office often enough to give me a true shot to help.  There are so many reasons that it is helpful to know that you’re depressed, including:

  • If you know you’re depressed, you realize you may be seeing things as more negative than they are
  • If you know you’re depressed, you realize the “problem” may not be your job, husband, kids, friends, etc, but that you are depressed and see everything as a problem
  • If you know you’re depressed, you may seriously reorganize your life, prioritize exercise, health, personal time, and so forth

But many people can look at the criteria for Major Depressive Disorder and not know if their symptoms exactly qualify.  So here is a list of some other “symptoms” of depression that you won’t see in a diagnostic manual, but that may resonate more with you.

  1. Music affects you differently.  You can’t listen to sad songs anymore because they make you cry, or you can’t listen to upbeat music because you find it boring.  Or else you have no desire to listen to music at all, even though you used to love it.
  2. You’re not as generous anymore.  You used to care about people’s troubles more, or you used to donate to charity.  Now you find yourself unmoved by the whole idea of charity or giving your precious spare time to listen to or to help your friends and family.  You’re looking out for number one.
  3. You don’t feel refreshed after sleeping.  You can sleep 12 hours and you still don’t wake up with a bounce in your step.  Or you can have a luxurious afternoon nap, and instead of it feeling luxurious, you feel like you were hit by a truck when you wake up.
  4. You don’t find things as funny.  You can’t remember the last time you laughed till tears came, or couldn’t restrain yourself from laughing.  If you watch a movie you used to find hilarious, you think it’s kind of stupid and you don’t remember why you even liked it so much.
  5. You are irritable.  This, along with anger, is actually a diagnostic criterion for depression, but it’s usually not one most people are aware of.  If everything your spouse does annoys you, and work seems to be filled with idiots, and your kids seem spoiled and ungrateful much of the time, this may be a red flag.
  6. Your relationship changes with food.  For many, food loses its appeal, and nothing tastes that awesome.  For others, food becomes the only bright spot in their day, and it is something to fantasize about.  Usually people with the latter extreme are suffering from atypical depression.
  7. Your body hurts.  Your back, joints, neck, or head hurts all the time, or your stomach is always unsettled.  You constantly feel, or state aloud, that you don’t feel well.  You’re almost relieved when you actually have a cold or even the flu, because finally there seems to be an actual reason that you always feel kind of sick.
  8. Your creativity tanks.  Some people are creative with crafts, others with cooking, others with cracking jokes, others with planning surprise day trips for their family.  Whatever your typical outlet is, it feels like your creative juices have dried up, and you can’t understand how you used to be filled with inspiration.
  9. You don’t feel romantic.  Many people with lower sex drives, like women with small kids, are used to feeling less easily aroused than they used to be.  But this is different.  Now, you don’t understand the need or reason for romance either, when you used to love it. Your husband finally brings home flowers and you don’t care.  Or your wife looks objectively nice and you can’t bring yourself to care or comment.
  10. Your kids aren’t cute anymore.  Well, they are objectively, you guess, but they don’t strike that same chord in your heart.  Or you may be a new mom and your baby strikes no chord in your heart, besides annoyance or anxiety.  If your kids don’t tug at your heartstrings, this is a sign something is wrong, and it’s usually not your deep fear that you’re actually just a cold person and parent.
  11. You give up on aspects of your life and your identity that used to be important to you.  Maybe you were always into fitness, but now you think spending your limited time exercising is dumb.  Or you used to entertain, and now it seems like too much work to clean and shop to host people you wouldn’t even really want to talk to.

My dad learned that his reading slows dramatically when he starts to get depressed – when the number of books that he flies through suddenly decreases in a week, he makes an appointment to see his therapist.

For me, it’s my friends that first point out that I’m “up” – the “when was the last time you ate?” question never stops, but it turns to “so for the past three days you’ve said you hadn’t slept last night…” or “wow you’re speaking quickly this morning!” or “so….when was the last time you took your meds?”

What are your personal signs that you may be sliding into a depression (or into mania)?

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I hate November.

[for the ones we’ve loved too much + lost too soon, all because of a past love that’s clouding their mind. oh, november and your way of breaking all our hearts]

how can i find my home
in the darkness of your mind
you talk of her too much to let it go easy
Will you Ever let go long enough to wAnt me?

oh, because i saw, bLack as a night, ocean’s abyss of her in your eyes
i saW it when you looked through me that night
i heArd it in the whispers between Your teeth,
heard it in the way you tried to Say that you loved me
heard it in your leaving, you were packing up your things
i should have known you didn’t want me
you never had room to want me

a FlickEring of innocEnt Light,
but a fire never burns all the way through a windy night
i can’t help but notice that you LOok so NicE
oh, and november’s chiLling my spine with his call

oh, because i saw, black as a night, ocean’s abYss of her In your eyes
i saw it wheN you looked Through me tHat night
i hEard it in the whispers between your teeth,
heArd it in the way yoU Tried to say that yoU loved me
heard it in your leaving, you were packing up your things
i should have known you didn’t want Me
you never had room to waNt me

(all of the lyrics, including capitalization choices, taken directly from Liza Anne’s website).

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New music Wednesday.

So frustrating when you’re medicated out of your creativity and someone writes your life in a song. Except I love it. Thank you iTunes radio for this.

Couldn’t stay with a man who would settle for nothing more than love
Wasn’t part of her plan, tied to what she’d grown tired of
She cried over and over, not knowing what words would move him on
He cried over and over, knowing the girl he loved was gone

She said, “I can’t stay here, I haven’t got the time.
Life goes by, dear, I won’t be left behind
And someday, I’ll reach the place where I won’t have to run;
There, I won’t be afraid to say that I am done.”

Couldn’t give her a reason more to stay
Every bit of her heart the girl grew more and more afraid
Couldn’t give her the patience or a guide
Every bit of her heart she felt another second die

I heard her shout, “I’d get out, let me out, get me out!
And someday, I’ll reach the place where I won’t have to run;
There, I won’t be afraid to say that I am done.”

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stay or leave.

Remember we used to dance
And everyone wanted to be
You and me
I want to be too.

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whom two.

Maybe you sleep so peaceful
Because you haven’t got a worry in your head.
Or maybe you keep your eyes closed
So you never have to get out of this bed.

And maybe I’m being selfish
I should get my things, and walk out of that door.
But maybe we both deserve this, and besides,
How could I keep from wanting more?

There’s nothing in this world today but
Who we are, and who we want to be.

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If I had nicotine on my lips, would you crave the taste of my kisses, dear?

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isn’t life a ball?

When you’re looking for something

Everything’s a sign

That rock you see is suddenly the mountain to climb

And anything is everything when nothing’s in sight

But the world shows you nothing

Till the timing’s right.

 

When you’re looking for someone

Anyone will do

As long as they’re someone who cares

And waits around for you

And anyone is everyone when no one’s around

But the world owes you nothing

If you settle down

 

So patiently, I’ll wait for thee

As up and down I fall

If patiently you’ll wait for me

Black and blues and all.

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one’s in the grave and the other should be.

You rock back and forth as the seasons
Change just like your mind in the dark
And the nights you sleep, you dream of me
And the love you let die

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coming clean.

I’m a coward
I hide behind all of these delicate lies that I sing
But I’m trying to come clean

I’m so lonely
Surrounded by people that know me,
But don’t know a thing
So I’m trying to come clean.

And every relationship I’ve ever been in
Has fallen apart at the seams
I’m just afraid I’ve been singing about love,
But I’ll never find out what it means
And if I was honest about what the problem is,
I’d have to admit that it’s me
I’m just trying to live up to all that you want me to be

I’m a liar
I sing pretty things
But I never quite say what I mean
So I’m trying to come clean

I’m so sorry
I know that I can’t take it back
No I can’t change a thing
So I’m trying to come clean

And every relationship I’ve ever been in
Has fallen apart at the seams
I’m just afraid I’ve been singing about love,
But I’ll never find out what it means
And if I was honest about what the problem is,
I’d have to admit that it’s me
I’m just trying to live up to all that you want me to be

Beautiful song performed by artist Chase Coy.  I heard these lyrics and just replayed them in my head over and over; I feel this way all too often about friendships, relationships, even my relationship with myself. I’m never quite sure if I’m being honest enough or too honest, if I’m running ahead or falling behind.  I can only accept love from someone that truly knows me, yet even I’m not sure who I’ll be in the morning.

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